It's like a, whirlwind inside of my head...

-Linkin Park, Papercut

Hmm, anexity. Anexity's an odd one. Ties into Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and many phobias (more specifically; claustrophobia, agraphobia etc.). And it's more a matter of self-confidence than anything, which tends to be both an inherited factor and impacted on via the environment.
And the people in the environment.
And everything else*.


Many things can crush or inflate a person's self-confidence, or ego.**
These things tend to occour during adolescence.
It's the time a being wants to start building up real status. Which is understandable.
People have different variations of fragility***. Some may be easily knocked, others as tough as diamonds****, and others have just been the wrong way up since they were born.

'Forgive and forget', is, as I feel, a ridiculous saying. People are like sponges; they absorb everything. Some things you can wring out. Some things remain embedded there forever, whatever you try to do...

~Dead Star - Physcologist of teh day


*Including seagulls. Bluddy seagulls. Homicidal seagulls.
**To be the size of Wembleh Stadium, or a back garden league.
***I don't care if it's not a word. I think it's a word. But I don't care.
****Or so they seem.

'Cos I'm breaking the habit, tonight...(or tomorrow, or maybe the day after...)

~ Linkin Park, Breaking the Habit*


I have many odd habits I should break.

Such as walking into walls and banisters,
Falling down things,
Falling up things,
Falling into things,
Falling at all,
Drinking 'drugged' orangeade from the local spar (30p for 330ml of pure e-numbers),
And speaking of camels and cacti.

I'll just go buy a stick now and live in the desert**.

With my camel.
Eating the cacti.
Then imploding due to being popped***.
And then the world comes to an end****.

>_>

<_<

>_<

~Dead Star; black and blue.

* Oooh, I gotta write that 'Baking the Hobbit' parody sometime
** And call myself Moses.
*** No camels were hurt in the making of this log entry. But, word of advise, don't feed camels cacti.
**** You never heard a thing.